I’m starting to feel like a Cafe Gratitude menu… but my intention for yesterday was be generous.
I was thinking about the overnight trip I was making down to OC, and how visits to my hometown, while always eagerly anticipated, often wind up being a mixed bag of fun, lively coffee talks or old towne walks, and complicated befuddling family politics.
So somehow, it struck me that a potential antidote to the sometimes uncomfortable moments that occur, could be generosity.
Generosity in any form I could offer it up.
Generosity of time
Generosity of myself
Generosity of patience
Generosity in attention
Generosity in suspending any little sister/youngest daughter attitude I may normally be tempted to cop.
I wasn’t perfect, because let’s face it… old habits die hard. Particularly where family dynamics are involved. But it was a great mindset to begin with. And return to. And assist me in making the most of the short time I had down there.
I don’t think I’ve ever really thought of generosity in those terms before… and it’s something I want to practice far more often.
Then at end of the night, around 11pm maybe, the power went out! Mid magazine read and conversation with my parents. Out of the blue. It was kind of creepy actually… but seeing as though I had already been getting tired over the past few hours, I took it as my cue to go to bed. And my inspiration for today’s intention.
To listen. To take my cues from the universe, or my body, or my baby, or what people are trying to say to me, and really listen to them. Rather than trying to superimpose my plans and premature conclusions upon them. To really pay attention to how my surroundings are informing me throughout the day.
Because I really do think we are constantly given some pretty clear messages from our selves, those around us, and even our environment. Answers to questions we ask over and over again, as though we don’t know the answer… when really, maybe we’re just ignoring them, or chattering over them, to suit our own agenda.
So today, I tried my best to listen.
Thanks for listening ; )